In March, God put this crazy idea into my head that has slowly become a reality. An amazing reality. Our church is planning a two-day conference for the lost women in our community. I'm in charge...and it's so scary. But things are coming together in such an amazing way that makes me so thankful to serve a living God. The conference will be June 8th & 9th. It's my prayer that this will be a step toward making our church biracial... we'll be talking about issues like sexual abuse, drug & alcohol abuse, depression, and being a single mom. It's going to be amazing...and feeling the Holy Spirit use little ol' me to make it possible is quite an amazing feeling. Next Sunday I'll be addressing our congregation to fill everyone in on the event (most people still don't know about unless they're part of the planning) and to ask for monetary donations to help us make the conference a success. It's scary...but God is so good.
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I'm way behind on highlights. My hair looks a hot mess and I wish I had the guts to try dying it myself. But my hair is waist-length. I can't risk messing up that much hair. Why do I have to love having blonde hair so much? It's so expensive to keep up.... sigh.
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We had revival last week. It was so great! I hope that our church is revived so that we can spread the revival into our community. One little boy got saved. My grandma came to church every night. She even brought her Bible. That's quite out of character for her and I hope that she will continue to step outside her box and get close to the Lord. =)
[sad]
Mr. Robinson hasn't made any money yet with his new job. He's getting very discouraged and worn down. He's thinking of looking for another job...but I know God led us here for a reason. I feel like I'm running out of ways & words to encourage him, but it's my job as his wife to constantly encourage him and build him up. But that doesn't mean my words erase the what he experiences daily...I wish I knew what to do. I pray that he will start making money very soon. But you know, it's not even really about the money...I just want him to start feeling successful. I hate seeing him down in the dumps.
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Zombie is so cute.
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It's hard not to miss the money of two steady incomes. We're officially one month behind on the house payment we give my parents every month...which isn't really a big deal. They're very understanding and we're blessed to have them as our lender instead of a bank. We're going to have to start cutting corners somewhere....maybe we'll have our satellite cut off? Mr. R's birthday is coming up...he says he doesn't want anything but he deserves a nice birthday present. I just don't know what I could get him that is within our budget & still something he really deserves.
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I spent some time Saturday in the Man Cave...sprucing things up and making it more manly for my love. I'll give y'all a tour soon. The cutest thing EVER was hearing my husband "brag" about it to my daddy. I knew he appreciated the effort by his excitement when I showed it to him, but to hear my hubby brag on something I did for him makes me happy. I'm happy to have done something that made/makes him happy. =) His Man Cave has a ton of stuff from his childhood in it...it's like a museum of his past life. I'm surrounded by my childhood memories since we live in the house where I raised. Now he has childhood memories in our home, too. :)
[sad]
It's almost time to go grocery shopping again and it's hard to spend money when the amount coming in has decreased. I loved grocery shopping when it was a carefree experience...now I feel guilty, no matter how much money I spend. It'd be so much cheaper to just eat hotdogs every night (which we both love) but I can't eat like that! His favorite foods happen to be very inexpensive, and while I love a good hot dog or burger or slice of pizza, I gain weight when I eat like that. So what do I do? What's more important? Saving money before we run out or buying double food because I want to eat healthy and he refuses to eat healthy. What a choice.
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I was fooling around in the kitchen on Saturday and found that I can use butternut squash in place of noodles in pasta dishes. That's a pretty exciting healthy alternative discovery! That puts pasta back in the game!
[sad]
I've been struggling lately with modesty issues. I feel like modesty should be practiced everywhere... (At church) I don't want my attire to get in the way of someone worshiping God. (Everywhere Else) I think it's tacky and disrespectful to their husbands when women dress provocatively. My body is not my own - it's my husband's. I don't want any other man looking at a creation meant only for the man I was created for. But...what about everyone else? What about all of the girls who wear short dresses and low-cut tops that get the attention of my husband? My husband is imperfect and attractive girls showing lots of skin catches his eye, even if it is in a bad way. Sometimes I'd like to take modesty out of the picture and dress in a way that catches his eye, too. But I know it would be sinful and dis-respective... but I still fight it. Soon, this will get a post all on it's own.
[happy]
This coming weekend, Friday - Sunday, I'll be stayed with my mom and grandma to attend a Christian conference. I'm so excited because (1) it's my first conference that I'm attending because of my own desire, and (2) my grandma is going!!!!!!! This is no small victory. This is the same grandma who came to revival every night. I hope this really signifies a change in her....we pray it..
[I don't have any more "sad"'s, so I'll end with 3 happy's]
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My husband is thinking of joining a bush league to play baseball! I'm so proud of him for his bravery. Maybe y'all don't think it's brave, so let me explain. He's never played baseball, he has no idea who these people are, and he still wants to do it. Um....yeah. The last thing in this world I would do is join a team of people I don't know to do something I don't know how to do. In my book, that's bravery.
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My alcohol convictions are changing...without me really having a say in it. That's "happy" because it's a sign that God is working on me even when I'm not looking. I've been thinking a lot lately about bars and how I don't think it's an environment I want to be in anymore. I've been thinking about how I don't want to be in a bar when Jesus comes back.... I'd rather be doing something that glorifies God. But that wouldn't really stop at "being in a bar," would it? What if He came back while I was watching a really vulgar movie or a million other things that would honestly embarrass me? Another reason to cut off our satellite. Save money and it would "give" us more time to spend in The Word. It's cool when God changes your convictions without asking, haha. Not that He has to, I'm just saying. Y'all know what I mean. :)
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I'm working on getting back to making weekly meal plans & choosing exercises to do on those days. I know some of y'all are probably guilty of the same things. You plan to get on track on Monday, but then it's Monday night and your hungry and you don't know what to fix so you spend 30 minutes figuring it out, and then you have to cook...and so on and so forth. So, my idea is to assign meals to certain days. I
ve got a list of 7 different exercises - I'll do one a day and have a day off. This way, I won't get bored with my routine. THEN, figure out how much "time" I'll have to do an exercise & assign a routine based on what I'm cooking that night....does that make sense? Maybe. I'll write more on this later.
Actually...I'll probably write more on most of these topics later. I've had this window up all day, adding to it a little at a time. I started out in a bad mood this morning, feeling like everything was going wrong. By the end of the day, I had more happy thoughts than sad thoughts, and I realize that my sad thoughts were pretty trivial. I have so much to be thankful for...this post kind of helped put that into perspective. =) If you've made it this far...thanks for reading my ramblings.
What makes you happy & sad today?
Coo Coo Kachoo,
Mrs. Robinson